To Never Feel Like Her Again

Last weekend I had the opportunity to hold a book signing at a church in Nevada. A great community of people who exemplify grace to the broken and downtrodden.

As I sat behind the 8-ft. folding table ladened with books, pens and brochures I found myself overcome with a feeling I haven’t felt in nearly eight years of sobriety.

ALONE. . .

While the staff and the volunteers were incredibly supportive, I was surprised by the looks and comments I received from many church attenders who stopped by and walked by…

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Cleaning Up After the Elephants

We often get fixated on the elephant. The big pink elephants that stomp around the rooms of our lives. You know which ones I am talking about. It’s the ones that no one else likes to talk about. You step around it. You fix the things it breaks. Problem is pretty soon, you just can’t ignore it anymore.

So let’s say you get to that point. The rare occasion of acknowledging the elephant for what it is. What happens once we get the elephant out the door?

As you can imagine, elephants leave behind quite a mess. A path of destruction…

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Some Books Are Meant to Get Dirty

It’s rare that I’ll post video blogs. Even more rare that I record myself talking for 10 minutes (my talking voice is not my favorite thing). But today, I want to share with you the unlikely story of what happened to the very first copy of Dirty Girls Come Clean and how even I was challenged to think differently about the book I have written.

I hope it inspires you in the same way it did me.

Watch the video now… or see below it for more.

The video goes into greater detail—but in short—

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One Word 2011: Ready

I have jumped on the bandwagon of One Word 2011.

My beautiful friend Alece Ronzino has challenged us to choose one word to focus on throughout the year. And hopefully learn and grow as a result of it.

While in the past I have lived by new year themes, I am loving this idea of choosing one word. One focus. One purpose.

My one word for 2011 is… Ready

If you read my post from earlier this week, then you know that I am embarking on a…

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From the Desk of Crystal Renaud

How’s that for an official heading? Funny, in that I actually don’t have a desk at home.

But anyways . . .

I wrote a post earlier this week as part of’s series on life transitions to announce something pretty big happening in my life and how it will affect the future of Dirty Girls Ministries. In case you missed the tweets, status updates, etc. referring to this announcement, I wanted to share it here as well. Thank you for the support you’ve shown me and this ministry, whether you’ve been following us for 3 years,…

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Resolutions Aren’t Magical

I remember when I was an addict that a new year always meant an opportunity for a fresh start. I’d get all excited and say to myself that I’d never look at porn again.

As if the clock striking midnight was going to magically wipe away the years of bondage I’d been trapped in.

The years of shame.
The years of living in secret.
The years of filling old wounds with junk that would never satisfy.

And yet I believed it. I believed that making a decision based on tradition was going to magically change me—only to wake up on New Year’s Day just as…

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What’s More Uncomfortable to Talk About than Porn?


Money is such a touchy subject. Especially in this current economic climate. And partner that with another touchy subject like Pornography Addiction and you’ve got yourself quite the uncomfortable mix.

But that’s exactly what I’m doing.

If I entitled this post something like, “year-end giving” you probably wouldn’t have read it.

But December 31 will mark the end of the 2010 tax-year and we would be insanely grateful if you would think of us with a financial year-end gift. Your gift will enable us to continue our ministry to women as well as allow us to achieve some really exciting plans we have for…

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Agreeing with the Devil

My LifeGroup is currently reading, When Heaven Invades Earth by Bill Johnson. To be honest it is a challenging book even on some doctrinal levels for me. However, the other night I read this paragraph and it has been messing with me ever since. . .

. . . in a good way.

“Satan didn’t come into the Garden of Eden violently and take possession of the Adam and Eve. He wouldn’t! Why? He had no dominion there. Dominion empowers. And since man was given the keys of dominion over the planet, the devil would have to get his authority…

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My Biggest Addiction Isn’t to Porn

For as long as I can remember I have had an issue with pride.

I can remember back to the 4th grade when I was given a solo in the school Christmas program. I was all jazzed about getting to sing my heart out with my very own microphone. But then the week of the program, my music teacher decided she wanted another girl to sing with me.

A duet.

Even on the night of the program I remember pushing myself ever closer (and pushing her further away) to the microphone so that my voice would carry over hers. After all, I…

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