getting IT back…

the last few days have been seen through old cynical eyes and tear-blurred eyes and fresh new eyes. i’m overwhelmed by Him and don’t have sufficient words to describe anything i am feeling. the only feeling i can describe semi-accurately is how i feel like i just returned from summer camp.

God is more intimate with me in this moment than i’ve been with Him in a long time.

i will share more soon.

“the pain inside has erased your hope for love but soon you will find
that I’ll give you all that your heart could ever want and so much more….

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Where’s My Blogroll…?

I deleted my blogroll? GASP!!

Yes, but not permanently. I have removed my blogroll in order to clean it up. I want to know that those who are on it are either still active bloggers, or are still around here from time to time and if linking me, are linked back to. I had some OLD stuff on there… years of blogging will do that, I guess.

So, if you wanna be on my new and improved blogroll — leave a comment below containing your blog address and under what name you’d like to be linked. Mutual linkage is always nice.


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relentless pursual

my friend Julie just recently started blogging… today, in fact. and she really hit it out of the park with her first entry.

here’s what she had to say. if you like it… give her some love.

So I’m guessing I’m probably one of the only people to ever felt convicted by a billboard. I was driving to work today and there was a billboard for KU Med. I know what you’re thinking…how did that convict you. The billboard said “I’m relentlessly pursuing a cure for cancer”. Relentlessly Pursuing. It made me think…what am I relentlessly pursuing? We all…

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Grace makes beauty out of ugly things…

most of you who read my blog know that i used to have an intense porn addiction. i have been open about it, pretty much from the beginning. you have been gracious, loving and supportive.

and i know that even after what i say today, you still will be. for that, i am thankful. even knowing that, it is still hard to bring myself to say this… but here goes:

i looked at porn last night.

even though i practically closed it faster than it came up, it still happened. i searched for it. it wasn’t an accident. unfortunately, i…

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kenny rogers IS my cousin

this post is the follow-up to two truths and one lie.

i am going to start off my revealing my lie… i am not 5ft. 2 inches tall. i am actually 5ft. nothin’. so, that means… Kenny Rogers IS my cousin. distant, but still my cousin. my grandma tells me stories sometimes about her childhood and having played with him at family gatherings, etc. and i did have very good intentions of going to school for meteorology. i didn’t, because well… i suck at math & science. i still love chasing a good storm tho!

now, to guess your lies….

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Real Hope for Haiti: How to Give

since our video yesterday, people have been asking how to give to the Real Hope For Haiti Campaign.

all donations through paypal or to their ministry address are tax deductible. Real Hope For Haiti is a non-profit organization, which allows your gifts to be tax deductible. any contributors will receive a statement at the end of the year detailing gifts given.

also, 100% of the money given via our blogs goes directly to their paypal account (minus a tiny fee that paypal charges). we are not handling any of the money. the donation button deposits directly into Real Hope For…

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change bites

Today, our staff meeting was led by Pastor Merle Mees for the last time. Merle, our Director of Ministries, is leaving Westside to join the staff as lead pastor at another metro church that will result in transition to Senior Pastor in the next couple years. This is a tremendous opportunity for Merle that we celebrate has come his way but at the same time drag our feet to accept the reality of. Being his last staff meeting with us, he taught on change. Westside is not new to change but as a staff… the transition of…

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NO santa. NO easter bunny. NO God?

ht: newworship blog but adapted for

i am pinkhairedgirl and i DO NOT deny the existance of the Holy Spirit.

i remember a time when i didn’t believe in God. i remember saying, “surely God isn’t real. absolutely not.” when i think back to those days it terrifies me. think about it. in not so many words, i had denied Him. denied my Maker. denied my Father. committed the greatest sin…


it wasn’t until after hearing the true Gospel for the first time some 6 years ago – that all of that became so very clear. of course…

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once saved… not always saved?

i was talking on the phone with a friend last night and our conversation turned to the topic of salvation. coming from fairly different religious backgrounds our beliefs in the “eternalness” of salvation somewhat vary. he comes from a more nazarene-ish influence where i grew up Catholic and became a Christian after hearing the Gospel at a Baptist youth camp. i have been under the notion that when people come to know Christ as their Savior, they are brought into a relationship with God that guarantees their salvation as eternally secure. But that is not the belief of all Christians. not to try and sway my own beliefs,…

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the devil made me do it…

I have been struggling lately with some personal temptation and some frustration because of it. I have been so preoccupied with my mission-planning and a bit stressed about it… that I have been losing my focus. It has been my past that temptation comes my way when God is working on me. So, I decided I had better surrender… and to go to the Word and see what I could find and hear what God is trying to show me. I reminded myself what a kick in the head feels like.

“… but each one is tempted when, by…

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