The Black & White of Fifty Shades of Grey

As Valentine’s Day approaches, many women will flock to their local theater to see Fifty Shades Darker, the sequel to the widely popular film and erotic book series Fifty Shades of Grey. There is a significant irony about linking a holiday about love and romance with a film that glorifies the use of BDSM (bondage, dominance, sadism, masochism) through manipulation and coercion in a relationship.

While the Fifty Shades of Grey series is often categorized as a romance, it actually normalizes a very serious issue in today’s culture: sexual violence against women. Just like in mainstream pornography, the Fifty Shades…

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Dirty Girls Come Clean Podcast: Episode 4

In Episode 4, hosts Crystal Renaud and Jenny Miller sit down with Hookers for Jesus founder Annie Lobert to discuss her new book “Fallen: Out of the Sex Industry & Into the Arms of the Savior“, her harrowing experience in human sex trafficking, and her participation in our upcoming WHOLE Women Weekend. In addition, we warn you about some provocative new television shows coming soon to your living room.

For complete show notes and to enter to win Annie’s book, click here.

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The Fraudulent Waters of Baptism

When I was in the throes of my addiction to pornography, it was very important to me that I appeared like I had everything together. That my life wasn’t run by my flesh, but that I loved God so much that every move I made and every word I spoke reflected Him. But in striving to do this, I skipped steps of faith and even lied to keep up the appearance.

Take my baptism, for example.

I was fifteen years old and had just started attending a new church with my mom. I found myself at youth group at the invitation…

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My Biggest Addiction Isn’t to Porn

For as long as I can remember I have had an issue with pride.

I can remember back to the 4th grade when I was given a solo in the school Christmas program. I was all jazzed about getting to sing my heart out with my very own microphone. But then the week of the program, my music teacher decided she wanted another girl to sing with me.

A duet.

Even on the night of the program I remember pushing myself ever closer (and pushing her further away) to the microphone so that my voice would carry over hers. After all, I…

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Why I Told My Dad

If you’ve been following my story very long you know that my dad shows up every so often in the stories I tell. Usually about how he wasn’t around for me emotionally. Or even much physically. How perhaps even that lack of relationship may have contributed to some of the trouble I got myself into. While some of those things may be true:

This time I’m taking responsibility for what I didn’t do.

It was only 4 months ago that I finally got up the courage to tell my dad about my past.

If you put it together the 8…

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Where Did “PinkHairedGirl” Go?

My single greatest takeaway from Echo Conference was Rhett Smith’s breakout on “Not Losing Yourself in Social Media.”

About six months ago I left my old blog ( behind to focus solely on Dirty Girls Ministries. But I kept “pinkhairedgirl” on Twitter because it is a name that people knew and I didn’t want to lose that draw. Even at the conference people seemed to know me first as “PinkHairedGirl” before they really knew my name.

The problem with that is I am not PinkHairedGirl. But I had become lost in her. My identity was being found in how others…

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“Come Stand in the Light…”

Most of you may not realize that my full-time job is actually in church communications and am actually a Regional Network Coordinator for the Center for Church Communications. I fully believe in God’s use of creativity, media and communications in carrying out His message in the Church and beyond.

I was able to attend Echo (a church media conference) with a couple of co-workers last week. During worship at the main sessions the worship leader Jon Abel led Matt Maher’s “Christ is Risen”. This is not a new song, but it has quickly…

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Just one of my favorite poems. Wanted to share it with you in case it speaks to your heart in the same way it does to mine sometimes.

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Silence by Bradley Hathaway

What’s happening here?
I was once so alive and now I’m so full of dread and almost dead
Show me Your wounded head that is lead to communion with the Father

But where did He go?

His presence seems farther and farther away each day
but I’m trying so hard to steer His way
Yet still lonely and confused on this cold hard ground I lay

Speak to me wise mouth and say “it’s all…

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5 Years Ago… One Confession to Start it All

Below is the very first post I ever wrote pertaining to pornography addiction. The post was my own confession of my past addiction to porn that I shared with the readers of a blog I once owned called, “Pink Haired Girl.”

Anyone around still remember that girl? 😀

A couple of years ago, I closed that blog and moved everything over here. So the posts remain as the reminders of where we came from. As you can see from the date above, it was 5 years ago that I…

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