When Death is Enticing… Choose Life

By Crystal Renaud

I have but a few words add to the already very long dialogue taking place right now after the death of actor Robin Williams. I know not all will agree with me, but this is my truth based on my own experiences. Thanks for stopping by. 

When a tragedy like this happens many cry “mental illness!” and “depression!” as a way to try and understand. It is normal for people to scramble for answers to a senseless act. And because no one chooses the path of mental illness and it is a long-suffering battle, it makes sense and…

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The Joy of Knowing Sara Frankl

I hope you’ll forgive me for deferring from official DGM business with a post about my friend and incredible woman, Sara Frankl.

I first met Sara online about 3 years ago when her name began popping up in my twitter feed because of mutual friends we share. But before I ever really knew Sara, I knew her little dog, Riley.

You see, for the longest time, Sara’s profile picture was Riley’s sweet…

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My Response to the Naysayers

A little over a year ago, I agreed to be interviewed for a secular women’s magazine. The reporter presented the article to me in such a way that they were really interested in female pornography addiction and wanted to feature it.

So initially it seemed like a good idea. Chalk it up to the inexperience and gullibility of a newbie.

She was friendly. She asked the right kind of questions. She even commended our work. But then the article was released—and I was immediately filled with regret.

Instead of writing an article about the issue of female porn addiction, the reporter’s…

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What’s More Uncomfortable to Talk About than Porn?


Money is such a touchy subject. Especially in this current economic climate. And partner that with another touchy subject like Pornography Addiction and you’ve got yourself quite the uncomfortable mix.

But that’s exactly what I’m doing.

If I entitled this post something like, “year-end giving” you probably wouldn’t have read it.

But December 31 will mark the end of the 2010 tax-year and we would be insanely grateful if you would think of us with a financial year-end gift. Your gift will enable us to continue our ministry to women as well as allow us to achieve some really exciting plans we have for…

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D-Day Tomorrow. I Need Your Best Music Picks.

I have a confession.

I haven’t been to the dentist in 10 years.

I have no great excuse for this other than allowing fear to rule this area of my life for a very long time. Ever since I had a choice about going to the dentist (I grew up with a former dental hygenist as a mom) I have chose not to go. Lots of excuses. But at the end of the day—fear chose for me. And eventually the embarrassment began to outweigh the fear. Even if I suspected an issue.

The sights. The sounds. The smells. The whole experience—Paralyzes me.

Tomorrow I…

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Just one of my favorite poems. Wanted to share it with you in case it speaks to your heart in the same way it does to mine sometimes.

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Silence by Bradley Hathaway

What’s happening here?
I was once so alive and now I’m so full of dread and almost dead
Show me Your wounded head that is lead to communion with the Father

But where did He go?

His presence seems farther and farther away each day
but I’m trying so hard to steer His way
Yet still lonely and confused on this cold hard ground I lay

Speak to me wise mouth and say “it’s all…

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Pray for Amy

On Sunday, May 23, Amy Wooddell suffered a stroke and underwent 7.5 hours of surgery to remove the clotting in her basil artery. Additionally they found that her right vertebral artery was torn and was repaired with a stint. She awoke responsive and could even whisper her own name. However, a few hours later her brain began to bleed resulting in an emergency procedure to relieve inner cranial pressure. On Monday, May 24 she was comatose with brain function of only 3 (normal is 15) and it was uncertain…

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Anne in Haiti

Next week my dear friend Anne Jackson is heading to Haiti with “Adventures in Missions.” Please pray for her and the other bloggers heading down to help and who will bring hope to this country through their writings from their experience.

Watch this video for more about what Adventures in Missions is doing in Haiti.

Help Haiti. from Adventures In Missions on Vimeo.

If you would like to actually commit to praying, complete this form so the team knows you…

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Surgery Update

Typing isn’t the easiest thing to do right now, so I am going to try and keep this brief. Hope that’s okay. Pardon typos—I’m not gonna proofread.

First of all, having surgery the day before Halloween is just plain weird. Case in point—this was my anesthesiologist. Surgery went beautifully though. And it went quick! And not just because I was on drugs. From the moment I went into the OR to the time I get into recovery, was less than 30 minutes. The recovery nurses said I came into the recovery room laughing… and I remember…

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I’m Going as Bedridden for Halloween

I wasn’t going to share this publicly but in the end, vulnerability and awareness beat out awkwardness and embarrassment:

If you’ve been reading my blog very long, then you may remember that last March, I went to the doctor about a small lump I discovered on my right breast. At that time, it was classified (via breast exam and ultrasound) as a cyst. It was then up to me about whether or not I got it removed. My doctor told me that as long as it wasn’t painful and wasn’t bothering me, there wasn’t much to worry about. So,…

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